con·fi·dence

noun /ˈkänfədəns/ /-fəˌdens/
confidences, plural

A feeling of self-assurance arising from one's appreciation of one's own abilities or qualities

Self-confidence does not necessarily imply 'self-belief' or a belief in one's ability to succeed. For instance, one may be inept at a particular sport or activity, but remain 'confident' in one's demeanor, simply because one does not place a great deal of emphasis on the outcome of the activity.

No, no, this is not a class on literature or how to spell confidence. It is something I struggled (and sometimes still struggle) with on a regular basis. I've really only recently felt more steadfast in my abilities as a photographer/creative/artist or whatever adjective you'd like to use.

Now the above paragraph for self-confidence I kind of agree with, but only a little. I place a great deal of emphasis on the outcome of my photography and if I feel I failed then obviously my confidence gets its ass kicked a little. I also don't feel that I am inept, but I do however feel I haven't even scratched the surface with my photography and where my skill set is. That's my own fault though.

Just this morning I saw this quote again from an amazing photographer and artist - Jeremy Cowart - "I’ve found that my confidence as a photographer is directly connected to how often I’m shooting. In other words, keep shooting." And I realized after this weekend just how true that statement is. I shot some live band photography this weekend (something those who know me, know I love and it's also the thing that got me into photography). I sucked though! And I can blame the venue and the lighting and whatever, but the truth of the matter is, I haven't been shooting bands often enough and developing my skills in that area.

I am still however feeling very confident, coz I know where the issues lie. In myself and that's okay. I've been practicing other skills and getting good results and I am happy. I just finished my personal project Dudes with Beards and the exhibition is on Friday. And last weekend I had one of the best shoots of my life thus far. I am happy to share the photos of that shoot with you here today.

I have another personal project in mind and I'll hopefully get that ball rolling in the next week or two. I'm excited.

PS: I've been featured! How awesome is that? Me?! Hell, I don't feel I deserve it, but I am stoked. Thanks to I Love Pretoria and Mixed Apples for your time. I am truly blessed.

Without further ado, here is the portrait shoot with John.

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